oh well..........

*sighs*

*smiles*

*sigh again*

>> yan ang post ko nung november 10,2003 [from www.fuckzandshitz.blogspot.com]

ups
and
downs
twists
and
turns

roller coaster ride

yan ang buhay ko..ewan ko bakit ko nasasabi sa iba na simple lang ang buhay. ndi ko din alam kung san ko nakuha yung idea na un. katangahan. kahit naman ano gawin, komplikado pa din. andaming bagay ung nangyayari na di mo naman gusto pero wala kang magawa para mapigilan un. andami ding bagay na gusto nating mangyari pero ndi nangyayari at wala pa din tayong magawa.

bat laging ganun? bat laging wala tayo magawa?
ang pede lang natin gawin ay tanggapin..
tanggapin na sadyang ganyan ung binubuhos sayo..
tanggapin na talagang ganyan ang binibigay sayo..
makisabay sa agos..
makisabay sa tugtog..
ngarag ka na na sa pagiisip kung kelan aayos ang lahat..tinotorture mo sarili mo sa mga bagay na alam mo namang makakasakit sayo pero patuloy mo binabalikan..kung di ka ba naman nagpapakatanga..kaw lang din nagpapahirap e..mahirap na nga, pinapahirapan pa naten..

>> eto naman ang post ko nung november 8, 2004.. wala kasing november 10,2004.. yan ung pinakamalapit na date.. [from www.thewayitsgonnabe.blogspot.com]

it's only been a week since the classes started for this sem and i feel stressed and drained already.

it's a good thing portia accepted our topic because if she didn't, we're going to do our thesis all by ourselves and we're not gonna ask a single help from her. we've been working for the whole sem break and we've spent a lot of money and alan had spent so much of his time printing the tests, so it's a good thing that she didn't ruin everything.she said about not having the time to check and read our new thesis three times just like mam joy did. she just said that we are taking a big risk and we have to be prepared for the panel when they asked questions about our thesis especially in chapters 1, 2 and 3. well.. portia doesn't know anyting.. *wink* i dont care if she cant check it three times or two times or how many times [the hell!] because we are not planning on going back to our first thesis [michael's words]. i know we can make very good chapters 1, 2 and 3. and we're going it give it to her tomorrow [!!!]

and during this whole thing, i realized a few things that saddens me [am really disappointed and disgusted]. i really hope that not everyone will end up being a mediocre.

i pray that all of these will pay off. =)

>> eto naman ang post ko ng november 10, 2005 [from www.thewayitsgonnabe.blogspot.com]

akalain mo.. eto na ang 4th november 10 post ko..

eto explanation nian e..

ung november 10, 2003 tungkol samen ni jeffrey yan. yan ng mga panahong masaya pa ako.. masaya pa kami.. mga panahong akala ko kami na forever..

ung november 8, 2004 tungkol pa din samen ni jeffrey yan. yan naman ung mga panahong wala na kami at ung tipong lungkot na lungkot ako dahil akala ko "mahal" ko pa sya.

ung november 10, 2005 wala lang. tungkol lang sa school. kasi panahon ng thesis yan..pero alam ko nung mga panahong yan e masaya na ko.. kasi mage-eleven months na kami ni iman nian..

ngayong november 10 na to..hahaha..magtutwenty three months na kami ng iman ko.. si jeffrey..?long forgotten..matagal tagal na din kaming hindi naguusap.. naiisip ko minsan.. kamusta na kaya un? malamang galit sya saken..akala nia kasi ni-user user ko sya.. hahaha..

buhay.