so much has happened since i last posted. but what i feel doesn't change one bit.

i mean there's this pain inside but then, it feels lighter. i still get sad most of the time but not like with jeff. really. God has a way of helping me out.

iman loves someone already. probably someone better than me. if ever that they'll be together, then maybe i really have to tell the part of my brain that triggers my feelings to stop sending me stimuli associated with love and care. and please no more pain.

i appreciate esdi telling me that i have a more positive disposition now compared to last time. [haha. ikaw din naman esdi. mas positive ka.] no dark clouds everyday. :) i enjoyed talking to him last night [i don't know if he did, on his part]. and i hope i have a lot of chance to have that kind of conversation often. not just with him, but with my other friends as well. but he [ehem] is helping me out a lot lately [though he's not aware]. i miss ust days. huhuhu. :(

speaking of ust, i was amazed two weeks ago when i saw the fountain. [bakit ngayon ka lang lumabas??] during college, jenny and i, when going home, would pass by lover's lane and complain about our pathetic love situation. when i saw the fountain, i felt the same feeling.

no one beside me to hold my hand and appreciate the splash. no one beside me, just stand beside me and stare and take in the sight. sad. :)

pathetic post :)