you. are. so. FEELINGERO. i hate feelingeros. :)

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been struggling with work. but still surviving.

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missing some of my friends. want to take a break with them.

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been wanting to go to church and tell stories to God. but don't know where i should go. might drop by at greenbelt this saturday.

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expecting more and more. then i got "you're such a good friend" how bad is that?

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happiness comes in small wonders

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been wanting to start travels with you

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a few thousands away from ixus

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harhar. :)

i want to take away everything i posted. starting february. i want to take it away. to swallow what i said and what i felt.

including you. sooner or later, i'll let go of the belief that we're meant. you know why? i'm starting to dislike what i am seeing. it's not you. no wonder it's hard for evrybody to figure you out. i don't know if you're shutting us away from your life. i know you didn't mean what you're doing but please lighten up. you're not going to get what you want.

i have here the list of books that i want to buy. invest on books. haha.

1. Heartbreak
2. A Book of Dreams
3. Tikman ang Langit
4. Vagina Monologue
5. Dear John
6. Judas and The Gospel of Jesus

the first three are written by Filipino authors.

can't wait to have them. :)

i really don't want to post right now because i want him to read my previous entry first. aaargh frustration.

frustration is already eating me.

frustrated with work.
frustrated with friends.
frustrated with myself.
frustrated with life.
frustrated with everything.

i need someone to talk to with whom i can vent out all these things building up inside me. super unhealthy.

yey. after i finished typing the previous paragraph, he txtd me. made me smile. for a while. aaaargh.

i hate grad lists. i hate calling people and asking them the same questions over and over again. i hate waiting.

i am thinking. how long will i wait for him? i know he is still not aware that i am the one made for him. harhar. how could i make him realize that i am the one that he's supposed to spend his entire life with. what is taking him so long to figure it out???? didn't he know that he's the cause of all the delay? delay of my happiness. delay of his. we've been looking for it for so long but then we can't seem to grasp it. aaaaaaaarggh.

how much pain will i still have to go through before i can have him?

HOY MAGISING KA!!!!! ANU BA!!

haha. frustration. frustration.

i wonder.. where do i belong? i have a theory. still thinking of an appropriate name for that. it's about the four kinds of people you meet in your life. i don't want to disclose this yet because someone might actually steal it. hahaha. but i give it as advice to my friends at times. :)

can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you. harhar.